Yesterday, I posted on my whiteboard on the outside of my dorm room door, "I think of myself less like 'an adult' and more like a 'former fetus'", a quote taken from one of Anna Kendrick's tweets.
I like to think of myself less like "an adult" and more like a "former fetus."
— Anna Kendrick (@AnnaKendrick47) April 24, 2014
I find this quote, totally, fitting my life right now. I had my Air Force midterm feedback, today. It is, basically, where I talk a little bit about my life, how I like the Air Force, what I think my superiors can do better, and the most hated part... the part where my superior tells me my bubbly energy is great, but I need to be more serious, SERIOUSLY.You are probably saying to yourself as you are reading this: "signing up for the military is like signing up for seriousness and adulthood".
I just spent my whole high school career being too serious about EVERYTHING, but then I graduated and realized that it hurt my "high-schoolhood" way more than it helped. I also sort of failed in my leadership positions in high school for being too serious.
Now, I have someone telling me to be a bit more serious and I can't do it. I am not bubbly all the time, but I guess it shows through when I am talking to people (I can't help smiling and cracking subtle jokes.).
This makes me question, is my way of thinking that life is too short to be serious all the time bad? Should I make my future career something that has to be serious all the time? I don't know.
Why does adulthood have to be a thing? Why can't adulthood not have the dragging weight of the future with it?
I get my job done. I am a diligent worker. I love the Air Force for a lot of things. I just like to show that I am happy when I am around the Air Force because it makes me happy.
I know that I have my personal life to be as not serious as I want, but Air Force, as I have experienced, greatly carries over into personal life.
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| A picture of me and two other first-year cadets that I took from a few weeks ago (also in another blog post)! |
I do not know if I can ever conform to not being me. They (my superior) said if I try out putting a serious face on, I will get used to it. Do I want to get used to it?
TIFFANY N. SEIBERT, C/4c, AFROTC
Tiffany, I empathize wholeheartedly with the Anna Kendrick quote you used. Sometimes adulthood seems so foreign and terrifying, and then I realize that we aren't all that far from it. Transitioning to college is the first big step down that path. Also, I found it interesting about what your ROTC superiors said about your bubbly energy. I feel like it would be a unique asset to something as stern as the Air Force. I guess when you strive for uniformity like the Air Force does, the dominant attitude (seriousness) ends up winning.
ReplyDeleteI love Anna Kendrick and can totally relate to her quote. I had to go grocery shopping recently and realized how un-adulty I still am. It's interesting that your superior told you to be serious. Your bubbly energy is great and you should never get rid of it!
ReplyDeleteFantastic post! I feel like we are all struggling at this point with the idea that "the rest of our lives" is not that far around the corner and honestly it's a bit terrifying. Like you, I was rather serious in high school, always focused on school work and doing the right thing. Senior year, I decided to loosen up a bit and hang out with friends more while still focusing on my studies and I am SO glad I did. My stress level dropped drastically and I was able to strengthen bonds I had with my friends. My suggestion would be, have some fun it's college and it's life you need to enjoy it! However, know when to put the serious face on for the sake of your superiors so they take you seriously and hold you in the highest regard. Try to save some of the bubbliness, which I love by the way, for social events or free time, but do not loose it!
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